I tell myself I’ll quit today,
only four cancer sticks left.
the box sits beside me,
taunting.

"Maybe I can just finish this pack,"
I tell myself.
"I don’t want to be wasteful."
and four more cancer sticks burn into my lungs.

I’ve been using a vapor pen.
18 mg’s of nicotine.
but it’s not enough.
two days without a cancer stick.

Driving down the highway,
electronic cigarette in hand,
inhale. exhale.
it’s not enough.

Get off at the next exit,
pull into the gas station.
buy my usual:
Camel Turkish Royals.

get back into the car.
pack them, open them.
Light it.
inhale. exhale.

I feel lighter, and better,
pulling back onto the streets.
"this will be my last pack,"
I tell myself again.

it’s an addiction.
I can’t stop.
Inhale. exhale.
i swear, I’ll quit.

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#i suck at this #poem #poetry #my words #my writing 

octobootle:

when you think your cramps are finished but then

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uhh..is this not Lady Gaga’s instagram photos of her dog?

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iamlucyspet:

the last one

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ryansgayliner:

the thrilling saga in which Panic! owns the fuck out of WBC

A+ handling of the situation

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rehfan:

rainnecassidy:

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prismatic-bell:

Can we just stop and talk about this for a minute?

Thresh doesn’t make an alliance. Thresh doesn’t waste time liking her. Thresh knows that either he must kill her or she must kill him for one of them to win.

But this is the only way he can repay her for protecting Rue when he couldn’t. It’s the only way he can repay her for honoring Rue when he couldn’t. He honors her by sparing her friend, the girl who would have died for her.

The revolution really doesn’t start with Katniss.

It starts with Rue.

SOMEBODY FINALLY SAID IT

This is exactly the point I’ve been trying to make for years. Okay, so the revolution gets it’s kindling with Katniss. She volunteers, well that’s new, she rebels in the display of talents by shooting the apple. This triggers her perfect score, okay. These aren’t really “Revolutionary” though. 

It’s not even revolutionary when Peeta professes his love, because, let’s face it, the rules of the game haven’t changed. They’re still just two kids who would have to KILL each other to win. Without a doubt, it would bring some interest to the games, so the Capitol makes propaganda about it. The “Star Crossed Lovers” in a game of life and death.

But what changes the game is Rue. Right away from her introduction in the books we know Rue is going to be somewhat of a big deal. She was compared to the most important character to Katniss, Prim, so that’s a huge indicator. She’s small, young, she’s what Prim would have been.

So Katniss instantly feels a subconscious pull toward her. 

When they meet in the trees, Katniss could have killed Rue easily, and Rue probably could have pulled a sneak attack or alerted the Careers of Katniss’s presence. Instead, Rue points out the Tracker Jacker nest.

Then it escalates, Rue and Katniss become an odd team, they’re an alliance, which is never new in the Hunger Games, as forming teams and then betraying them at the end seems to be a common, but there’s is different. It’s close, it’s sisterly, protective.

And then Rue get’s impaled. Katniss kills her first tribute with ease after that. Comparing it to hunting game. Katniss holds Rue, she cries, and then she sings. She sings for Rue a song of promised safety and warmth, something completely absent in the arena. 

And this is where the metaphorical canon fires. Katniss could have left Rue, the hovercraft would have been along to pick her up, but she can’t. She’s morally obligated to love this girl as much as possible. And this is where the revolution starts. 

She honors the dead. She honors a dead tribute from a district she’d never seen, a person she’d known for only a short period of time. But she throws away Hunger Games norms. She rejects them completely.

In the Hunger Games you’re supposed to kill mercilessly and leave the victims for the plain box they’re shipped home in. 

Katniss gives Rue a funeral in the Games, she decorates the body, she makes it look like Rue is sleeping. Like no harm had come. Katniss just ignited the coals that Rue had placed.

Rue’s District sends a parachute. Homemade bread. 

Then Thresh kills Clove and distracts Cato by taking his bag. 

The fire is going now, and the actions in Catching Fire are even more obvious.

The Speech for Rue. Peeta’s painting. Everything eludes back to this one little girl who became Katniss’s family.

So the revolution never started with Katniss, she was just the tinder for Rue’s ignition. 

Rue was the real Mockingjay.

I just got fucking chills. I don’t think I ever realized this before.  I need to reread those books again.

I just loved that this little girl, this catalyst, was named “Rue”.

To “rue” something means to REGRET. (As in: “You’ll rue the day you crossed me.”) And the Capitol has a lot of regret to come to it.

And then there’s the homonym: “Roux”. A “roux” in cooking is a mixture of wheat flour and fat used as a base for sauces and stews as a thickening agent. It’s the beginnings, the catalyst for something richer, something more.

God I LOVE clever character names!

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#THIS #rue the revolution #i knew it 

as i stare at my ceiling,
lit by the rising sun,
I have to remind myself that I’m okay.
that I survived an end.
I survived a past,
I’m surviving a present,
And I can overcome a future.

even if it is without you.

@1 week ago with 1 note
#writing #i suck at this #poem #poetry #My Story 
writershigh:

What Is Love?
baby don’t hurt me,

writershigh:

What Is Love?

baby don’t hurt me,

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missstoicbird:

awwww-cute:

Our 4 week old kitten’s first time in the grass

I will always reblog this.

missstoicbird:

awwww-cute:

Our 4 week old kitten’s first time in the grass

I will always reblog this.

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mostlycatsmostly:

(by Rachelle ♥♥♥)
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"The only people I would care to be with now are artists and people who have suffered: those who know what beauty is, and those who know what sorrow is: nobody else interests me."

Oscar Wilde (via psych-facts)
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unstoeuf:

i made a danny phantom / ariana grande mashup and i’ve had a lot of nyquil 

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